Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Remembering Raphael

When I got pregnant last year, I fully expected my birthday this year to be a very happy event -- I would either be holding a baby in my arms or just about to give birth.

Instead, this day proved to be one of my loneliest birthday ever because of the recent happenings in my life. I started it off by attending a mass in honor of my son Raphael. I know that my son is already an angel in heaven but I still like praying for him because it is one of the few things I can still do for him as a mother.

Hubby and I then went to Dangwa to buy flowers for him. After that, together with the rest of my family, we went to the cemetery to visit my Lola's grave where we kept the urn of Raphael. Lunch was a delicious affair by the bay as we bought various seafoods and had "paluto" in one of the restaurants nearby.

I received a lot of text messages greeting me a happy birthday but the ones which I appreciated the most were those which mentioned my son. For to remember my son is one of the greatest joys I will have as a mother.

Take a look at my yummy birthday cake which my husband ordered from Estrel's:



And of course, this is the portion I got:


"The mention of my child’s name may bring tears to my eyes,
But it never fails to bring music to my ears.
If you are really my friend, let me hear the beautiful music of his name.
It soothes my broken heart and sings to my soul.”
- Author unknown.

20 comments:

kyels said...

Happy Belated Birthday to you Ladybug!

And I'm sure Angel Raphael is silently wishing his mommy, you, Happy Birthday too.

[:

*hugs*

Ingat ka palagi!

ladybug said...

kyels> Thank you very much! :-) *hugs*

snglguy said...

A belated Happy Birthday, Ladybug. It's nice to see, or rather... read, that you're slowing coming out of the shell so to speak. :-)

That is one beautiful cake btw. Too pretty to eat. But it looks like you got the lion's share. ;-)

Sidney said...

Belated Happy Birthday !

ipanema said...

~ Belated Happy Birthday, Ladybug!!! ~

That's very thoughtful of your husband. Lovely cake!

Hope you had a good one together with your angel and the whole family.

{{hugs}}

Rey said...

Happy birthday. I want to share you this song from Rascal Flatts titled "MY WISH". I hope you like it.

I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything...
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.

But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

*If you want to hear this beautiful song, you can go to this link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-aa39rNDj60

JMom said...

Happy birthday, ladybug. I'm sure your little angel is always with you...

"And when you feel that gentle breeze
Or the wind upon your face,
That's me giving you a great big hug
Or just a soft embrace."

~author unknown

niceheart said...

Happy birthday ladybug. Pareho pala tayong May ang birthday. :)

That surely looks like a yummy cake. And I'm sure that your angel is looking down from up above. :)

ladybug said...

snglguy> Thank you very much. Beautiful cake talaga di ba....and very yummy too. Raphael would have enjoyed it if he were still alive inside my womb. And I really insisted on that portion.

ladybug said...

sidney> Thanks!

ladybug said...

ipanema> Thanks! I really wanted to celebrate my birthday by remembering Raphael. The poem at the end of the post was apt...while mentioning his name may bring tears to my eyes, it is music to my ears. I love talking about him and remembering him. Considering the circumstances, I enjoyed my birthday. I was able to do something for Raphael.

ladybug said...

rey> Thanks! I like the song and the message too. Grabe, hinanap mo pa talaga yung lyrics. :-) Thanks! I hope you have a wonderful week ahead of you. Sandali lang naman ang bakasyon ng mag-ina mo. Before you know it nakabalik na naman sila.

ladybug said...

jmom> Thanks! I liked the quote at the end of your message. I will certainly add it to my collection.

ladybug said...

niceheart> Thank you very much. I do hope that Raphael is having a fun time in heaven. I hope he doesn't worry about his Mom who continually misses him. :-)

rhodora said...

Belated Happy Birthday, Ladybug! I wish you the best! I can see happier days for you and hubby ahead! :) *hugs*

Toe said...

D**n I'm late! :) Happy Happy Birthday Ladybug! My wish for you is hope and happiness and a wonderful year ahead!

ladybug said...

rhodora> Thanks! I do hope so. But that wouldn't stop me from continually remembering Raphael. After all, he is our firstborn. :-)

ladybug said...

Toe> Hahaha...it's ok. Thanks for the warm wishes. :-D

Toe said...

Ay! Nawala yung comment-greeting ko sa'yo! Belated Happy Birthday Ladybug! I'm sure Raphael was greeting her Mommy a happy happy birthday too and I'm sure that he wishes nothing for you and Jojo except your happiness and peace! :)

ladybug said...

toe> Uuyyy, di naman nawala yung nauna mong greeting. Pero ok lang, you can never greet someone happy birthday enough...hehe. Yung nauna, pang-belated, at yung pangalawa mong greeting, advance na para next year! :-D